This morning as we were driving I was looking out the window and I looked over at the riverbed. A homeless man stood staring at the water. We turned onto another street and a man they call "shorts" was digging through the trash. We were almost to our destination and I saw another man coming out of the riverbed with his grocery cart. On my way home just about 6 blocks away to other homeless men were walking together. I thought at least they have each other.
I could not get their faces out of my head, I tried to lay down after I lyed the boys down for there nap, and these faces just kept popping up. My chest and heart started hurting. I got a large lump in my throat. I began to pray. "Oh Abba Father, have mercy on these people. Help them. Help them find hope in Christ.." I just prayed and prayed and wept and wept. I was sobbing for these people.
I have never experienced this before....I have never sobbed for homeless people. God loves these people as much as He loves me. They are no different than me. God's love is beyond my brain capacity, God's love is bigger than we can imagine. I have been passing these people and judging them in my heart. Am I God? ummm no! God is the judge, God calls me to love my neighbor. Jesus loved everyone! The dirty filthy people that I have been passing by every day without a second thought.
My prayer is that God continues to open my eyes....open my eyes beyond my potato sized brain. My prayer is to become more like Jesus and less like Natalie. My prayer is to stop caring about what other think about homeless people and what God thinks about homeless people. My prayer is to just stop caring about my kingdom and care about God's kingdom.
Jesus thank you for living on this earth perfectly...thank you for your sacrifice on the cross for me..me, I just don't understand that. But I am so thankful. Only you Jesus can love perfectly!
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